"I rather be loved for someone I am, then for someone I am not."
Amazing words, right there.
Mario raed me today xD
He like ran up behind me and tackled me, and it really hurt, I like yelled at him so loud. I was like "MARIO GET THE FUCK OUT !" he walked away. :3 lovin' the mexican boys.
I went on my friends iPod touch today, and went on msn to talk to Andrew, and I was like "whats up?" He's like "downloading movies" and all my friends madeone of those really long "ooOOoooh's" like everyone did in elementary school when someone got sent to the office. And then he said something about how he hates Jahovo witnesses (excuse my seplling) andI was like "What if I told you I was one?" He's like "Well then baby you can come to my house, but not to preach me if you know what i mean ;D" and once again my friends went. "OoooOOooOOoooh." It was hilarious.
Appearently I took an attitude with my aunt so I'm grounded off the computer till Monday. I mean seriously? I'm hot, and in a bad mood. Is it so hard to undersand that? And I was only taking an attitude because she was ignoring me. I asked "When's dinner." *No reply* "When's dinner?" *no reply* "Kayla, can you go turn on the kettle ?" "FUCK WHEN I FUCKING DINNER?!" *grounded* I hate that. No one listens to us, but they expect us to do stuff for them. Argh, and I'm like freaked out, 'cause what if my aunt takes my laptop away? I haven't talked to Andrew, because him and his friends went to go play some gayass video game -____- and if I ignore him for like iunno, 5 days, he'll be like "Kayla if we can't talk anymore than I think we should see other people" Well that's what I think he would say, but he probably would, I mean; guys are like that most of the time.
I don't want him to breakup with me. I don't know if he still reads this, but sometimes he's all I think about. I mean; I'll be writing something, and he'll come into my mind, and I'll like daydream about him for the next three hours. Sometimes when he's mad at me, I actually cry. Because I don't want him to be mad at me, I want him to say "I love you" and say I'm soemthing special, I wanna be something special to him.
Awhile ago he told me that when I talk about Sean and other guys, it really bugs him, and it made me so happy to know he cares. I love knowing stuff like that, because he means everything to me, and when he said something about his ex the other day I was so sad, it was horrible. I don't know if I was obsessed or it was because I'm scared he'll brake up with me again.
Yes I said again. He broke up with me three days after we first got together. He told me he doesn't want to be in a relationship that's not going to go anywhere. That killed me inside, because he didn't really think about that. And he said "I love you" so many times that I thought maybe he did, then he turned around and said that. So I kinda died inside.
Guys are dumb sometimes.
I should be doing this thingy. But I won't. LOL Maybe I will. YahI will. I'll just color it really poorly and stuff.
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He like ran up behind me and tackled me, and it really hurt, I like yelled at him so loud. I was like "MARIO GET THE FUCK OUT !" he walked away. :3 lovin' the mexican boys.
I went on my friends iPod touch today, and went on msn to talk to Andrew, and I was like "whats up?" He's like "downloading movies" and all my friends madeone of those really long "ooOOoooh's" like everyone did in elementary school when someone got sent to the office. And then he said something about how he hates Jahovo witnesses (excuse my seplling) andI was like "What if I told you I was one?" He's like "Well then baby you can come to my house, but not to preach me if you know what i mean ;D" and once again my friends went. "OoooOOooOOoooh." It was hilarious.
Appearently I took an attitude with my aunt so I'm grounded off the computer till Monday. I mean seriously? I'm hot, and in a bad mood. Is it so hard to undersand that? And I was only taking an attitude because she was ignoring me. I asked "When's dinner." *No reply* "When's dinner?" *no reply* "Kayla, can you go turn on the kettle ?" "FUCK WHEN I FUCKING DINNER?!" *grounded* I hate that. No one listens to us, but they expect us to do stuff for them. Argh, and I'm like freaked out, 'cause what if my aunt takes my laptop away? I haven't talked to Andrew, because him and his friends went to go play some gayass video game -____- and if I ignore him for like iunno, 5 days, he'll be like "Kayla if we can't talk anymore than I think we should see other people" Well that's what I think he would say, but he probably would, I mean; guys are like that most of the time.
I don't want him to breakup with me. I don't know if he still reads this, but sometimes he's all I think about. I mean; I'll be writing something, and he'll come into my mind, and I'll like daydream about him for the next three hours. Sometimes when he's mad at me, I actually cry. Because I don't want him to be mad at me, I want him to say "I love you" and say I'm soemthing special, I wanna be something special to him.
Awhile ago he told me that when I talk about Sean and other guys, it really bugs him, and it made me so happy to know he cares. I love knowing stuff like that, because he means everything to me, and when he said something about his ex the other day I was so sad, it was horrible. I don't know if I was obsessed or it was because I'm scared he'll brake up with me again.
Yes I said again. He broke up with me three days after we first got together. He told me he doesn't want to be in a relationship that's not going to go anywhere. That killed me inside, because he didn't really think about that. And he said "I love you" so many times that I thought maybe he did, then he turned around and said that. So I kinda died inside.
Guys are dumb sometimes.
I should be doing this thingy. But I won't. LOL Maybe I will. YahI will. I'll just color it really poorly and stuff.
Okay,
first of all, I'm in love wit simple plan right now. You know how sometimes people have those songs that you just wanna dance to and like sing along to, and you know ALL the lyrics. And it's the most played song on ur iTunes list? Kekekeke :} Yah Simple Plan is like that with me right now. There song relates to my life so much right now, like the lyrics in it "To be hurt, to feel lost, to be left out in the dark, to be kicked when your down, to feel like no one is around, to be on the edge of breaking down, and no ones there to save you" Exactly how I am right now. Well I do have someone to save me, but how can he save me if he's all the way across the country? Oh well.
I went to my old school at lunch again today. Geez Kayla if you hate the god damn school so much why do you still go at lunch? Shut up inner Kayla, no one cares about you. But Kayla *Duct tapes inner Kyla's mouth* Anywho, I went at lunch, blah blah blah, Cari got punched in the face. It was unbelievably badass. She cheap shotted this chick, which is totally stupid, and this guy walked up to her, turns out the chick she punched was his little sister *Inner Kayla has muffled laughter* SHUT UP ! Ok, yah he punched her in the face, and oh the blood, the blood, lots and lots of blood, piles and piles of blood, red, oozing blood, lol jk I hate blood. Seriously it makes me puke. But today was an acception, god she deserved that so much, yes I know people. I'm an evil little girl for wishing someone to be hurt likwe that, oh well. I still think she deserved it, and if you bother to read my blog, pleaseno hate comments, it really pisses me off.
I have tea. Yes I know, English much.? YAAAH ! BRITS ! Are english people britih people? WOOW blonde. Anywho, as you can see I put three spoons of sugar in my tea, I mostly only put one >:] Yuuum<3 Okay, yah I'm getting incredibly hyper, which isn't all that bad, and and and. Yah.
I'm on the final level of super mario sunshine ! <3 YES ! It's actually insanely hard, but that might just be because I suck at video games lol. I've only had super mario for three weeks, wow that is kinda a long time for not completing it. Oh well, I can't wait till the end. Like, ever since I was little I've wanted to beat this game lol. I was like scared of the eel guy when I was little, so that's why I never beat it, I know I know, depressing. *sigh* Oh well.
My cousin Joshy has heat stroke. It's kinda sad. Like he's 2....He deserves some mercy ! He's super sick, but he's going to be fine, he's been puking all day though, and like he was crying earlier, it was so sad. He made me sit with him for an hour so he would know I was there for him, like I promised I would be. When I was 10 I got heat stroke at a track meet. It was horrible, I was in the bathroom puking all day, the worse part was the track meet was at my old high school, not my old one meanign my currently old one, I mean my old old one, with Jordan and Chanelle, yah... But if it was horrible for me when I was 10 I could imagine it for a two year old.
Okay now I'm writing too much,
summing it up.
Listening to: Naturally - Selena Gomez
Eating: Nothin'
bada bing bada boom.
first of all, I'm in love wit simple plan right now. You know how sometimes people have those songs that you just wanna dance to and like sing along to, and you know ALL the lyrics. And it's the most played song on ur iTunes list? Kekekeke :} Yah Simple Plan is like that with me right now. There song relates to my life so much right now, like the lyrics in it "To be hurt, to feel lost, to be left out in the dark, to be kicked when your down, to feel like no one is around, to be on the edge of breaking down, and no ones there to save you" Exactly how I am right now. Well I do have someone to save me, but how can he save me if he's all the way across the country? Oh well.
I went to my old school at lunch again today. Geez Kayla if you hate the god damn school so much why do you still go at lunch? Shut up inner Kayla, no one cares about you. But Kayla *Duct tapes inner Kyla's mouth* Anywho, I went at lunch, blah blah blah, Cari got punched in the face. It was unbelievably badass. She cheap shotted this chick, which is totally stupid, and this guy walked up to her, turns out the chick she punched was his little sister *Inner Kayla has muffled laughter* SHUT UP ! Ok, yah he punched her in the face, and oh the blood, the blood, lots and lots of blood, piles and piles of blood, red, oozing blood, lol jk I hate blood. Seriously it makes me puke. But today was an acception, god she deserved that so much, yes I know people. I'm an evil little girl for wishing someone to be hurt likwe that, oh well. I still think she deserved it, and if you bother to read my blog, pleaseno hate comments, it really pisses me off.
I have tea. Yes I know, English much.? YAAAH ! BRITS ! Are english people britih people? WOOW blonde. Anywho, as you can see I put three spoons of sugar in my tea, I mostly only put one >:] Yuuum<3 Okay, yah I'm getting incredibly hyper, which isn't all that bad, and and and. Yah.
I'm on the final level of super mario sunshine ! <3 YES ! It's actually insanely hard, but that might just be because I suck at video games lol. I've only had super mario for three weeks, wow that is kinda a long time for not completing it. Oh well, I can't wait till the end. Like, ever since I was little I've wanted to beat this game lol. I was like scared of the eel guy when I was little, so that's why I never beat it, I know I know, depressing. *sigh* Oh well.
My cousin Joshy has heat stroke. It's kinda sad. Like he's 2....He deserves some mercy ! He's super sick, but he's going to be fine, he's been puking all day though, and like he was crying earlier, it was so sad. He made me sit with him for an hour so he would know I was there for him, like I promised I would be. When I was 10 I got heat stroke at a track meet. It was horrible, I was in the bathroom puking all day, the worse part was the track meet was at my old high school, not my old one meanign my currently old one, I mean my old old one, with Jordan and Chanelle, yah... But if it was horrible for me when I was 10 I could imagine it for a two year old.
Okay now I'm writing too much,
summing it up.
Listening to: Naturally - Selena Gomez
Eating: Nothin'
bada bing bada boom.
I'm going to tell you guys something.
If you're fat, you're not beautiful.
If you're too skinny you're not beautiful.
If you have braces or glasses.
You're not beautiful.
Now let me tell you something else.
All that I just said, was a lie.
Eerythign right there is false. If you're fat, you're beaurtiful, if you're skinny, you're beautiful, if you have braces and glsses, you're beautiful.
You won't believe hoe many times I've looked in the mirror and thought I was never going to go anywhere, I was just going to be some fat cat lady sitting at home, on some kind of chat room waiting for the perfect man.
When really, I won't be.
I can be anyone or anything, I'm beautiful no matter what other people say or think.
It's scary to think how many girls have eating disorders. And because of what? Some other girl told them they were fat? The school hottie rejected them? That's no reason. My cousin is like that, she thought she was fat and she's gone down to 82 pounds before, she's been taken to the hospital because of what everyone else says.
I've lost one of my best friends because of that.
Every girl on piczo, facebook, twitter, youtube, flickr, etc. Is beautiful. In fact- they're gorgeous, just the way they are. They shouldn't let someone preferebly more beautiful than them to control their lives. It's THEIR lives. They control it, they decide what happens, and they decide who they are. No matter what the look like.
If you're fat, you're not beautiful.
If you're too skinny you're not beautiful.
If you have braces or glasses.
You're not beautiful.
Now let me tell you something else.
All that I just said, was a lie.
Eerythign right there is false. If you're fat, you're beaurtiful, if you're skinny, you're beautiful, if you have braces and glsses, you're beautiful.
You won't believe hoe many times I've looked in the mirror and thought I was never going to go anywhere, I was just going to be some fat cat lady sitting at home, on some kind of chat room waiting for the perfect man.
When really, I won't be.
I can be anyone or anything, I'm beautiful no matter what other people say or think.
It's scary to think how many girls have eating disorders. And because of what? Some other girl told them they were fat? The school hottie rejected them? That's no reason. My cousin is like that, she thought she was fat and she's gone down to 82 pounds before, she's been taken to the hospital because of what everyone else says.
I've lost one of my best friends because of that.
Every girl on piczo, facebook, twitter, youtube, flickr, etc. Is beautiful. In fact- they're gorgeous, just the way they are. They shouldn't let someone preferebly more beautiful than them to control their lives. It's THEIR lives. They control it, they decide what happens, and they decide who they are. No matter what the look like.
I just don't understand it. Being anerexic isn't pretty, it isn't beautiful. yes; some people are born like that, and I respect them completely but just thinking that i's other people's fault that the person is like that, I would be dead inside, I would have this feeling liek I've just comitted murder. I just killed this beautiful, gorgeous, wonderful, person.
Because I was prettier than them...
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Because I was prettier than them...
I've been home almost all day,
I like walked around town for a bit and then went to my "old" school and saw my limited friends at lunch. My friend who's a little bit different, literally rubbed his balls and wiped his hands on my face. And this chick put her book in my friends bag, so we took it out and read it, I don't know if anyone has read "Identical" but it's a pretty horrible book. We read three pages, and they were about this girl giving her dad hand. And her sister was like wanting to as well. It was kinda no INCREDIBLY sick.
And I got this message today, well it could've been from last night, but I read it today, so it is officially from today. This girl(I think it is a girl) said she really liked my blog, and gave me her email addresse saying she wants to become better friends with me, to me that was kinda creepy. But hey, I'm open to new things so I added her, but you guys if you want my email just message me sayin somethin' like"Can I have your email?" Because if you give me this long paragraph about how you enjoy my blog and want to be better friends with me, that's kinda creepy. I mean, thanks for the effort and everything you put into that letter, but I get easily creeped.
I'm hungry, brb
15 minutes later
LOL I'm such a fail. I'm all like tryin' to be healthy and stuff, so I run for 2 hours straight, come home, have a shower, start this bloggy thingy, and then go downstairs, eat some ice cream then make a chicken burger. Way to go Kayla you've just achived the title of Ultimate Fatty. -____- this is actually a half bad chicken burger though, incfredibly yummy.might just be because I'm starved O.O whenever I go run for a bit, I come home starving, so technically I won't lose much weight(although I don't have to) and I won't really make these fatty legs go away.
Kay it's really stupid. I get a message saying "I won't be on today" and the little orange sign is around the persons picture, I just opened msn and it's green. *dorky laugh* Kayla won't ever figure out, I'm online and not talking to her *snort* WHATEVER ! I don't love you. Nope. Not one bit. Calm down Kayla. Kay *Breethes in* ..... *Breethes out* fuck my spelling.
I'm done.
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I like walked around town for a bit and then went to my "old" school and saw my limited friends at lunch. My friend who's a little bit different, literally rubbed his balls and wiped his hands on my face. And this chick put her book in my friends bag, so we took it out and read it, I don't know if anyone has read "Identical" but it's a pretty horrible book. We read three pages, and they were about this girl giving her dad hand. And her sister was like wanting to as well. It was kinda no INCREDIBLY sick.
And I got this message today, well it could've been from last night, but I read it today, so it is officially from today. This girl(I think it is a girl) said she really liked my blog, and gave me her email addresse saying she wants to become better friends with me, to me that was kinda creepy. But hey, I'm open to new things so I added her, but you guys if you want my email just message me sayin somethin' like"Can I have your email?" Because if you give me this long paragraph about how you enjoy my blog and want to be better friends with me, that's kinda creepy. I mean, thanks for the effort and everything you put into that letter, but I get easily creeped.
I'm hungry, brb
15 minutes later
LOL I'm such a fail. I'm all like tryin' to be healthy and stuff, so I run for 2 hours straight, come home, have a shower, start this bloggy thingy, and then go downstairs, eat some ice cream then make a chicken burger. Way to go Kayla you've just achived the title of Ultimate Fatty. -____- this is actually a half bad chicken burger though, incfredibly yummy.might just be because I'm starved O.O whenever I go run for a bit, I come home starving, so technically I won't lose much weight(although I don't have to) and I won't really make these fatty legs go away.
Kay it's really stupid. I get a message saying "I won't be on today" and the little orange sign is around the persons picture, I just opened msn and it's green. *dorky laugh* Kayla won't ever figure out, I'm online and not talking to her *snort* WHATEVER ! I don't love you. Nope. Not one bit. Calm down Kayla. Kay *Breethes in* ..... *Breethes out* fuck my spelling.
I'm done.
